Sometime ago, I start to question myself for what do I want my blog?. Different people use it with different purposes. Some complete intellectual, others as a personal diary, others as publicity, jokes, etc. Still I do not have a reason or focus of mine, hence, I really do not know how to personalized it.
Nevertheless this time I want to publish with the goal of remembering. Yeap, March 2007 has been a month with many things to digest and I haven’t moved from my actual physical place much.
Let’s see, from the intellectual part: it was submitted 2 conference papers (March 1st. to DiGRA and March 15th to PerGames. Ok, I know to submit it does not imply to be accepted, which it is fine as long as we get valuable feedback. However it does imply an effort to write. And for ME scholarly writing is a pain in the ass!!! Hopefully one day a miracle will show up and I will be able to do it.
Besides that, a report of activities for my Mexican grant should be sent and reach Mexico before March was over and a trial of my research proposal for the game seminar I am taking in Tampere was due on the 5th of March. My goal was to get some feedback from the Game researchers. To close properly this month, well a submission for the Seminar of Games and Society was due on the 31st of this March.
From practical things, well SciMyst born. Yeap after some months of gestation and hard work, it came to the world in the SciFest . And without a doubt I will write more about it soon. It has a lot of dreams and research. Without doubt looking forward to make it growth. And I should make public that if it was not for the passion and effort of all the members who work on it, it wouldn’t be possible to bring it alive. Thanks to each one.
Also the digitalizing of the Seniors’ games is taking place. For those who knows Joensuu and specially for those who speak Finnish you will enjoy them 😉 Soon they will be available on line for all the public.
However from all that, the most remarkable event was that I turn to be an Aunt and also in the same month Paul went to heaven.
I am from the philosophy to do and be my best. Life is a right and obligation to be lived, as long as we are in here. And it is up to each individual how to live it. However, Paul showed me to fight with all your strength for the life, and to do not complain about the adversities. It is amazing how much can teach and give someone in just one week, such a innocent and little one, and that independently of anything else. Because it doesn’t matter of the loved surround us, money or technology anything is granted. We only have to be our bests. This is really difficult and hard to digest.
Also I would like to read again how Einstein explains relativity. Because in this month I lived on my own person how each moment of time was endless, because I wanted to know about my love ones, and the pain makes the things no easy. And at the same time so ephemeral because I was not able to finish what I wanted to do (even if I prepare tons of things weeks in advance) and that special feeling showed up too when you see some of your dreams come truth after so much effort but you can’t share it with your love ones because there is deep pain too. All at the same time, it is just bizarre!
I think I will need a time to process all these.
Ah!!! And I forget to add, I crashed the Network of the Department, they said it had implications to the University Network. No idea of the impact of my trip to second floor with my baby . As a good chaotic engineer I made it work in the place I need it 😉 in a really naïve way, because I never wanted to harm the whole network. However, it was interested to have this feeling “wanted dead or alive†oh god!!! what a month!!!